conservative me

2/18/2012 02:38:00 AM 1 Comment »
i just got back from melepak at mamak's with Azrul. i wished we could spent more time talking more to each other while having supper , and azrul suprisingly remained calm even though hours before we met, i was acting cranky and when he fetch me, i was still sulking and his being romantic by feeding me his food as i didn't order anything. boy, that works, woman is completely attention seeker !! LOL. I was so happy with that but something happened that makes both of us leave mamak earlier than expected.

we were sitting at outside table, at the parking lot. then came few youngsters sitting at the table behind us. after awhile, i saw parents with few kids, arrived and at that time i was " selambanya bwk bdk2 kecik melepak kat luar at this hour" . it was already after 1 am at that time. and bdk2 tu yg plg kecik i guess around Alia's age, 2 years mcm tu and other siblings like all below 6 years old. there are few kids. but then okla, mase i complaint pun i just complaining dlm hati. both of us keep on talking and suddenly this kids running to my table and i was like dah start rasa bengang. bdk yg plg kecik tu keep on running and her sister keep on kejar die, i know that kid at that age mmg susah nak handle, like Alia, sng je nak terlepas kalau kita jaga, and derang blh dissappear in any seconds je. that 2 years kid tu then terlepas lagi from her sister's hand then lari ke arah jalan which is there were a lot of cars in and out and at that time i was like close to shout dah. sbb sgt takut kalau ade kereta langgar. even youngsters belakang kitaorg pun dah siap mcm nak bgn sbb panicked kan. nasib her kakak managed to kejar and grab her little sister;s hand.

after that, aku pun mulalah start being me again, bengang dgn sikap parents mereka yg brought their kids to this kind of place at this hour. like seriously, 1 am in the morning ? they should be in bed !! i will never bring Alia out like this. kids should be treated like kids, they should be protected, bkn let them live life like adults. seriously stupid, i really against this inappropriate way to bring up your kids. dahla bwk anak2 kluar at 1 am mcm tu kat mamak, penuh dgn asap rokok bagai, lps tu they dont even taking care to the children pun, bodoh gila okay! bila aku dah start bengang, azrul cant stay calm already haha, he trus "jom balik" . we passed by their parents table and i saw derang tgh makan dgn hebatnya, and the stupid mom said to her big daughter " jaga adik elok2" . what the fuck i heard that !!!!. bila takde anak, nak anak, bila ada anak , ya Allah... tolonglah jaga dgn sebaiknya. kalau nak bersuka ria kat luar pun laki bini, tgkla condition dulu, sapa yg kau bawak, tempat yg sesuai dan masa. kalau dinner time, acceptable la in condition kau cari la table inside, and that bdk kecik duduk dlm babychair. seriously, bengang. im so against all of this thing.

i remembered last time i lepak kat Murni around supper time, ade this parents brought together their baby serious i rasa cam 3 4 bln baru, stupid gila. murni tu lgla environment tu totally NOT suitable for baby. dgn bising, kotor, asap rokok and the most important thing tgh malam kot. silala sedar diri, ksian gila kat baby tu. asyik nangis2, and mak die keep on kluar masuk kete sbb baby asyik nangis. of courselaa.. tlglah be civilized skit. konon modern parents la, bwk baby kluar mlm2, and lepak kat that kind of place. oh please !!

you can call me conservative , and i totally dont mind. i strongly believe, kids should be treated like a kids and it is our responsible to protect them and decide what is the best for them.

you can say easy for me to say this kind of things, coz im not even married and have kids. but i do have nephew and nieces. i treat them according to their age. taught them the best lesson and educate them when they do wrongs.

lucky Kampung girl

1/14/2012 12:58:00 AM 1 Comment »
i still want to talk about reader;s digest. now i wonder how on earth my father found out about this magazines and even subscribed it. come to think about it, i feel proud and lucky Kampung girl :)

we live in a very small town. basically i grew up in a place that only a basic things like school, clinic, shop, police station etc etc. we dont even have a proper bookstore at that time. and to have RD sell at my hometown was something that very very impossible. i dont recall i see one when i was still pretty much there.

my father, i believe he dont know how to speak English because i never heard him speaking in my life. I never see him reading something in English. I never see him watching english movie. but his favourite tv program is Wrestling :). I believe he do understand english, probably basic conversation and basic instruction. He is a teacher anyway. Until now i am not very sure either he can speak english, or read english. i dont know. i dont know, really.

and how my father got to know about this magazine, and found it very useful and meaningful for all his children to read, i feel amazed. i remember him, almost every weekend travelling back and forth to Kuantan for his "usual" routine . Probably during one of those weekend in Kuantan, he found out about this. maybe someone promote it to him. maybe he do read it first than found it was a really good magazine. i am not sure.

the only thing, for sure, i never see him reading Reader's Digest even he is the one who subscribed it. my father, he is mysterious that way.

thanks mr google

1/14/2012 12:05:00 AM 0 Comments »
one of my new year's resolution is not to buy those fancies so called fashion magazines anymore. Does people in this century still practice having resolution on a new year ? I still do, believe me. I do have the list. I am 29, and still found that having the list of what we want to do and what we want to achieve is the best way to make sure i do not stray from the right track.

every month, without failed, i always find myself at the bookstore, browsing magazines and bought all this female, fashion magazines like i was a fashionista or something that i need to catch up on what;s IN now. all those years i have been blind and i ashamed of that. when i look back all those magazines that i bought , hundreds dollars has been spent, i realize how ignorant i am. I could use that hundreds to buy something more meaningful. so i decided to stop buying those magazines at all. i am determine. money wise-checked. lagha wise=checked LOL. thanks mr google.

i am always a fan of reader's digest. my father subscribed this magazines when i was still at school and i just love to read it. basically, i love to read something about life, people's experience, autobiography,history , its really inspiring you know. and i could never find any other magazine like reader's digest. the size, it is practically like a novel, a book.

but i dont know what happened. i stop buying RD, instead i bought more fashion magazines. i must be crazy. i guess, work divert me to look for something more fun and relax for my past time. but i do realize it is just a temporary happyness. it is so much different, the feeling i got once i finished read every article in RD. i feel content, i feel inspired and i am much more happier after reading it. So i found myself back craving for RD after i bought their Classic Edition last Christmas. It complete my year end holidays at home with my parents and family :).

period

10/30/2011 12:23:00 AM 0 Comments »
i am longing to the beach, to the island, to the breathtaking view. i am longing to swim deep into the sea, touch the coral, breath a little breath. i am longing to see the other world, the castle, the beautiful things when i swim into the deep sea.

i need to get out from this place.

ignorance, no ?

10/29/2011 03:36:00 PM 0 Comments »
when i was at Giant this morning, i encountered something that makes me feel shamed.

i looked for Express Counter to pay my things. there are 2 express counter, so i queued behind this malay lady at one of the counters. earlier i saw the other lane, already have someone queuing behind one group of 3 people. so while i was waiting, i noticed that actually this 3 people, mind you they are malay and adult, 2 men and 1 lady , they were paying their groceries, full in one trolley in express counter ! Ya Allah, what;s up with these people? are they really stupid that they doesn't know that they are at express counter, which is clearly stated for 10 items and below.

seriously, i feel so shamed on their behavior. and i was really angry at the cashier, because she failed to inform this morons that they were in wrong lane. and this morons, happily laughing and talking without feel any guilty to the person behind them. shame shame shame

untitled

10/29/2011 01:03:00 PM 0 Comments »
i cook today. i was craving to cook the whole week . there were times, once i reached home from work i really feel like cooking something, the rush and eager to cook , i cant describe it well. so finally this very beautiful morning, i went to Giant bought chickens and lada to cook Bihun sup :). my all time favorites. now i am so full and happy, turn on my tv and writing this. relaxing after so many things happen to me this few months.

it is funny , the way i ease my stress and depression. i always find cleaning the whole house and toilets give me the best feeling ever ! even i didn't cook for so many months, i still cleaning my kitchen, mopping the floor and whatnot whenever im at home during the weekend.

it is weird, almost a month i didnt go back to rompin, it feels so weird. my sister heading hometown today, but i don't want to tag along. why ? i don't have the answer.

trust me, there were so many sad things happen to me. I do feel very lost sometimes. i kinda live in very pathetic life right now. but who am i to complaint and whining? i am still very much a lucky person with all the goods thing Allah give to me. but one tend to forget that. So please be grateful.

Untitled

10/23/2011 12:50:00 AM 0 Comments »

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